Well, with the losing weight...not going to good! I have been terrible! Then my best friend who has been going to the gym and working out, eating right is now 269lbs and creeping up on me. She has never been smaller than me!! She is getting closer! Arrrgghh!!!!

I did take the dogs for a walk around the big block last night! See, there is three blocks and I have them as small, medium and big blocks. The small would be a 10 minute walk which I usually do for the dogs. Next would be I guess a 20 minute walk roughly and that is anothere one I do here and there. The one I did last night was the big block and I would put it towards 45 minutes? With the dogs I sometimes feel longer because honestly, how can you sniff every single tree, fence post, grass blade!!!!! Just do what you have to and get over it!!!

Today when out with my girls, both got a chocolate bar and I did not!! I was actually very proud of myself for not eating one! I made up for it when over the weekend I ate a box of twinkies!! OOPS! Guess that was not the best thing in the world!

So, I can only go day by day! Today was good I guess. A few bbq peanuts. WooHoo and because of my daughter I discovered Almonds that have a bit of flavour to them that are really good and Almonds are good for you. Handful of them after working out. Working out.... I should go with my older daughter tomorrow when she wants to work out! Would be the right thing to do.. I know it would!

Okay, it is after 2am and I am still on the computer and watching the tv!! A little CSI Miami never hurt anyone!!

Out for now! Chow!!!!

Where do we start

Okay, here it is a Sunday afternoon and I am sitting on my lovely squishy couch, on my squishy ass and watching Kristie Alley's tv show and feeling some inspiration. Inspiration to lose weight which I sooo know I need to do! This is the biggest I have ever been and it does get depressing and that does not help me at all!

So, Kristie weighs in at 230lbs I think it was and right off the bat I said "I look bigger than that"!!!!!! I weighed in at 245lbs!!! UGH! Disgusting! Seriously, where the hell did it all come from? Oh look, now a weight watchers commerical! Do they really want me to lose this weight don't they! I did WW and did lose. Was down to 169lbs back in 2001 (I think that was the right year) and with the crap in my life I just started back to eating whatever I wanted to again! This is the biggest I have been!

Typing this and on facebook because I have no life!! LOL Still watching Kristie and I wish I could have a personal trainer! Unfortunately, I am poor!! hahahaha!!!!!!! I guess I need to go back to the Y and have one of their wonderful people there work out what I need to do to lose my tire! Where did I gain a tire? I really do feel like a guy with the gut that hangs over the pants! I then need to work on my legs, ass, two chins, thickness of my hair!! Surprised my hair has not got fat! No, I just got told I look like a guy! Where is the receding hair line??

Dinner tonight is a pork roast and potatoes and carrots. Remind myself not to eat it all! LOL Tomorrow, breakfast...bowl of cereal. I should take the puppies for a walk but I truly don't feel well.

This is a whine session today! Can I say anything nice?

Let's see....I am alive and that is good!! I am writing and expressing my views even if no one really cares! Oh, smell dinner... yummy and that is good!!